Monday, March 30, 2009

We Rocked or Did We Rolled?

This morning, I sat at my desk earlier than usual to start my blog. As  my fingers were  poised lightly on the key board, I began to feel dizzy, then the lamp shade began to tremble, and I felt a familiar rolling motion underfoot.
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Yup! We had an earthquake on this sunny, breezy Monday in the central coast of California.
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According to the local television news station, it was a 4.3 on the Richter scale and lasted 10 seconds.  It wasn't a "there's-a-big-hand-pushing-my-building" type of quake; it was more like a "there's-a-wave-passing-under-my-building" type--the kind that is almost enjoyable to ride if you weren't so aware of the harm that it could cause. I did not even have time to get up and stand in the doorway--the best place to be while experiencing a temblor--before it stopped.
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The news began to report about 15 minutes after the quake and claimed no fires, no downed telephone wires, no canned food crashing off supermarket shelves, no harm, no foul.
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Oh, yeah? Tell that to my computer and internet connection! When I returned to my desk, my computer was frozen. I rebooted but could not get back onto the internet to write the blog piece.
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Now, I'm miffed.
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How dare Mother Earth choose this moment to rearrange herself and let off a little pressure, right as I am ready to write?  Doesn't she know I'm on a deadline?
Honestly, I had to chuckle at myself as I heard my inner voice say: "Here's a place you can choose your response rather than just react." So, I recited the Serenity Prayer:
                    God: Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
                              the courage to change the things I can, 
                              and the wisdom to know the difference.
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Rather than rant and rave about the inconvenience, I thanked Mother Earth for the small quake (now we are less likely to have a big one), and I went about rescheduling my day.  
Instead of writing and conducting research, which was the orginal plan; I cleaned off my desk, filed a bunch of papers, and called a number of friends back east--most of whom tried to convince me that it was time to move out of California and back to New Jersey.
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I snickered at that suggestion for earlier this year the New Jersey county in which my family and sweetheart live had four small quakes. The residents were shocked. Some reported thinking there had been an explosion nearby; some thought a bomb had been dropped on their neighborhood, while others thought it was the end of the world. The Jersey quakes, ranging between between 2. and 3.5, were pretty light-weight, as quakes go.
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I just talked to my neighbors, Maggie and Lou, and they didn't even feel our 4.3 tremblor. Business and usual for them.
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As for my computer, when I turned it on this evening, a message appeared on the screen saying that the date mechanism had been incorrectly reset and I needed to rectify it in order to get back on the internet.
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The reset date? December 30, 1969, 20-odd years before there was such thing as an internet. Apparently, not only did I feel the earthquake this morning, I also spent most of the day in a time warp!

Monday, March 23, 2009

Less Mental Work, More Wonder

In ways unclear to me, I have begun to see my life in a new way...at least for several minutes a day.

Those are precious moments when my perspective  shifts...and, zoom...my vision widen and sharpen simultaneously.

Or perhaps I'll hear a whispered, yet very clear and elegantly simple answer to a question I have pondered for the last twenty years of my life.

I marvel and delight at these insights.

Sometimes they are quiet confirmations of things I already know, but don't trust that I know.

Other times they are new, fresh, and instantly recognizable as the key that will liberate me from an outdated or fallacious belief I've lugged around way too long.

And sometimes, the insight comes as a sign...something symbolic in nature...and I must interpret its meaning. That's when I put on my thinking cap and mud boots, and my analytical mind takes over and does what she enjoys doing: mucking around...digging deep, mining for meaning. (Uh-oh, watch out.  My friend Ricket says I can be obsessively analytical.)


 Signs or Wonder

On both Saturday and Sunday mornings of this past week-end, I sat inside urging myself to go out and enjoy the bright sunshine. But I lallygagged for another hour or so, watering my plants and signing along to Handel's Messiah, at the top of my lungs. On both days, when I finally stepped outside, the sky opened up and rained big drops, even as the sun still shone.

In serious pursuit of the divine messsage, I queried Buddy: "What do you make of this? I know it was a sign! Two days in a row, I delayed, and then it rained when I finally walk outside. What to you think it means? Maybe it was a sign to stop puttering around, and get up and get productive."

Buddy: Did you see a rainbow?

YaYa: What rainbow?

Buddy: Your experienced a sunstorm twice. The perfect conditions for rainbow!

YaYa: Oh, My God/dess! I missed the pretty rainbow!

Me and my analytical mind...so busy digging for the meaning, I missed the wonder.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Embracing Souls



Gracefulness has been defined
to be the outward expression of
inward harmony of the  soul. 
--William Hazlitt

Monday, March 9, 2009

Help! I've Been High Jacked!

Just when I was beginning to praise modern technology some one ups and high jacks my personal email
address!

Wasn't it just last week I confessed that technology "has provided me with the greatest amount of satisfaction and happiness I have had in my life." (Exaggeration always comes back to bite me in the butt.)

Just a few nights ago, apparently someone hacked into my email, high jacked my contact list, and sent spam to everyone on the list--in my name. (Let your guard down for one minute and...bam!)


I feel betrayed by my whole computer system. How could this have happened? More importantly, what can I do about it?

Creating a new email address is just one step in a process. Can any of my readers suggest what else I can do to protect myself in cyberspace?

There is another way to view this incident. (I look...and I must giggle.) For more than two years,  I have needed to change my personal email address because it was created by Chaz, my former husband, and the address contained letters from his name. The time had come to do something about that.

Change was afoot, but I was dragging my feet. (I feared fiddling around with my computer and its programs.)

So...boom...
a problem arises...
which necessitates a new address, pronto...
I figure out how to take care of the problem
(this is a big deal for a computerphobe)
and one more thing on my mile-long To-Do List is done!

Signs and Wonders!

Monday, March 2, 2009

One Never Knows Does One?

Dear Readers: Welcome to the first Monday blog. For now and into the foreseeable future, I will publish My Seat on the Beach on Monday afternoons rather than on Friday evenings. The new schedule will give me an opportunity to take my blog to the next level: I plan to write responses in the comment section to further discussion there... and here.

When I started this blog, it was with the intention of establishing the discipline of writing at least one piece per week. At the time, I did not foresee that I would develop a readership of people who enjoy responding to each others' blog comments as well as responding to my blog entries. I confess, I love reading the blog conversations and banter as much as writing the entries.

So, I want to get in on the action. With the new publishing schedule, I will have time to correspond with my readers during the week through the comment section. I can imagine new blog topics will grow out of this exchange, new friendships will develop, and old friendships will be renewed.

The irony of all of this is: Until three years ago, I was a technophobe and techno-Scrooge. I teach communication courses at a college in San Jose, CA--public speaking, interpersonal communication, small group communication, and argumentation. Make no mistake, I have a bias in favor of face-to-face communication--no keyboards, no icons, no buttons, no earphones--no muss, no fuss.

I hate that people expected me to answer email. I have a cell phone I barely use (and don't ask me my cell number; I don't know it.) Digital cameras discombobulate me, I-Pods perplex me, and Blackberries make me itch. Most of the time, I don't even answer my home phone.

So, I have to laugh at myself when I realize that menacing machinery has provided me with the greatest amount of satisfaction and happiness I have had in my life: 1) My Seat on the Beach--brought to you by modern technology, and 2) My reunion with Buddy--made possible by. none other than the technological advances I have scorned.

One never knows, does one?